So last Wednesday, I was diagnosed with a nasty case of Strep! NOOOOO! I dragged my antibiotic laden self to the couch, and stayed there a couple of days. I started feeling a bit better, then allergy season hit. God help me, I'm never going to feel ok again! I'm on claritin, 875 mg of amoxil (2 times a day) and advil allergy as I need it. Elvis and I took a 4 mile walk on Saturday, and it was SO nice.
I worked a double on Sunday and then rested yesterday. I'm off Wed and Thur. SO this morning, I've cleaned my kitchen spic and span. =D After I finish this blog post, it'll be time to do the same thing to the living room and dining room. We're going to Orlando next week, and I don't like my house being messy before a trip. I'll be visiting the gym at some point after my cleaning. I'm doing Arms, Chest, Abs and then some cardio. I'll do the cardio with the puppies. I enjoy our walks. They are my favorite. I love seeing the big houses close to ours, the decorations they put out and the famlies around there. It makes me so wisful.
Speaking of being wistful... wishful even, I need your prayers. We really want a family. I'm so sick of seeing everyone else with one and feeling like less than an entire woman because I've been unable to do that. I've last over 250 lbs, and it's still not happening. I feel broken. And what's worse? My family is far away. My friends, well, they live in Dallas, Florida, Tennessee and other places not here... I have a few in Houston, but they aren't really concerned with me. They all have their own lives. And I guess I understand, but I can't help feeling lonely. We're starting to go thru the motions with the doctors tomorrow. I'm scared and I feel alone. All I have is my husband, so I'm leaning on him, more than I probably should. His family loves me and they are good to me, but it's hard because they don't speak english.
I'll be ok. And this episode of Army Wives is over... so it's time to get back to cleaning! :)
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